You may have noticed two things about this blog lately. First, it has taken a bit of a pessimistic turn. Almost cranky about all things. Secondly, the lack of daily posts. There is a reason for both.
I'm starting on my fourth week now of being really, well, not well. I think it was manifesting itself in my writings and observations for awhile before I quite realized what was going on. At least I hope that is the reason that I was taking such a cranky view of everything around me. Sure, I can be snarky at times, but I never want to be perceived as just plain mean.
Things finally came to a head the night Hurricane IDA was supposed to hit us, but never did. I just say that because it is a way of me marking time since I had my first attack.
It started out as a coughing spell that lasted three hours and left me weak and my heart racing. I have since learned three things: I have a slightly enlarged heart, chronic bronchitis and high blood pressure.
I am working with my doctor and we are trying to get this all under control, but it is not unusual at all for my pulse to beat at 125 beats per minute. It feels sometimes like my heart is going to just beat right out of my chest. Especially lying in bed at night. That is the scariest time. Feeling my heart racing in my chest and wondering if I will cross the finish line before I wake up or not.
Tomorrow I venture over to Cancun to see a cardiologist. Hopefully he will have some good news. Or at least something different to try to lower this heart rate and bring my blood pressure back down to normal.
Meantime, I am tired, worried and exhausted. Thus the lack of posts. I just don't have the energy or resources to come up with a witty blog every day. And I am certainly not out and about taking pictures right now.
So please bear with me. I will return to regular programming as soon as I can.