Last week I got the kind of news from a friend that leaves you with your mouth gaping open in astonishment. The kind that fills you with disbelief and an immediate horrible grief. The kind that has you sitting on the edge of your bed, sobbing into a towel. The kind that makes your soul feel hollow. I'm sharing no details. Suffice it to say that I have not been coping well with life this past week.
I even considered not returning to this blog. How could I post happy pictures and thoughts when I had none? Nothing seemed important anymore. Not this blog. Not my life on the island. Not my friends. Not my partner. Nothing. I abandoned the real world around me as much as I could and retreated into myself.
I'm still suffering from shell shock but the tremors are subsiding. Life is returning to normal. Good friends are helping. And not just flesh and blood friends. Blog friends. I have been overwhelmed by the thoughts of concern and care that have been sent my way. By strangers really. But not really.
This Blogger community is a world all its' own. I've always known that I have some good friends out there in Cyberspace. This past week drove that point home to me again. Thank you all.
So I have decided not to abandon you as you have not abandoned me. I will continue this blog. It may take awhile to get back to my full spirit. But this thing gives me so much joy I simply can not walk away from it. I need joy in my life again.
Tomorrow we return to normal. Or my new normalcy. I think I have changed this past week.